Thread: here is my story.

SORRY BUT I NEED TO TALK ABOUT SOME STUFF.

i was diagnosed wiht a spinal disease a few month ago called ankylosing spondylitis. my spine is fusing together. it is making me crippled and this disease WILL kill me. i was given 10 years at the very most. i was recently diagnosed (december 20th) with bipolar disorder, anxiety disorder, manic depression, and sleep apneah. i have been feeling lazy and not normal the last few month so i went to see a shrink. she ran some tests and our 1 hour session turnder into a over night stay because of the stuff i told her. i have honestly thought about killing myself a few times a day for the last year. my health keeps getting worse and i feel that all the meds i am taking are not haleping. currently i am taking enbrel for my spine, seroquel for the bipolar, darvocet for everyday pain, and orizac for the anxiety disorder. they are all downers and i know this is not healthy. i recently got married on december
10th. i have a 2 year old son named Logan. he is definitely the only reason i am here right now. i wake up everyday in extreme pain and i rarely have a good attitude when i first wake up and i feel worse and worse everyday knowing my son sense's that. i am a stay at home dad because of how bad my back has gotten. that sucks too. my wife works 40+ hours at her full time job and 20+ hours at her part time per week just to pay for everything.i can go on and on but i doubt any one is gonna read this and if they do they wont care so i will just stop here unless people want me to keep going another day.

X3. It's better to talk it out and not keep it bottled up inside. I am sure that if you need to talk and don't want to do it openly, you can pm any one of us and we will listen. I know I will. Just think of your family. Especially your son. We are here for you.

After having my daughter it messed me up BIG time! I was only 15 and so my body was like is going on!! (lol) The doc put me on Effexor XR. I took for 1yr and got off of it. When I was going threw my divorce I got back on it. It worked VERY well for me. Its not a downer at all!!! It gives you LOTS of energy. Maybe you should ask your doc about it. The only thing that is a downfall is it has a "Sexual Side effect" (sorry if its To much info butt) in my case I could not get..umm...satisfy. But I was happy and not wanting to hurt myself...so it was worth it. EFFEXOR XR®: A Depression and Anxiety Disorders Treatment here is a link. And like everyone else said VENT AWAY!!! That is prolly the best thing ever!!!

I can't say that i totally understand either but I know that it must be rough to deal with. You just gotta hang in there for your son and wife if noone else. And I'm sure all of us on here are wlling to talk to you about it or just listen if nothing else. And if you just wanna talk and not post a thread feel free to pm me I can't guarantee I'll be on everyday but I'll be sure to gt back to ya

i feel your pain man, just hang in there! i don't know where you stand on the idea of prayer, but it can't hurt to try.

either way your in my prayers. you can over come this, nothings impossible!